A sad funny ending to find yourself pretending

di ko nga alam kung anong mangyayari after death. iniisip ko nga, walang sasalubong sa akin na mga anghel na malalaki ang pekpek dahil sa aking buhay pagano. at best, pupunta siguro ako sa impyerno. although gusto ko pa ring isipin na mas mabait ako kaysa roon sa mga makadiyos na nagsisimba tuwing linggo pero puno naman ng kaitiman ang kaluluwa. kaya kung talagang may diyos at nagkita kami sa pinto ng langit one day, baka naman pwede ko siyang pakiusapan. who knows, baka sakaling makalusot.

pero sana naman ay matagal pa ito bago mangyari at hindi ko muna iisipin ng mataimtim. i will enjoy my life now because i fucking deserve it. sabi nga ng idol kong springsteen: “These are better days baby

62 thoughts on “A sad funny ending to find yourself pretending

  1. hey pinsan.

    hang in there. let’s see what the test results will show. i’m pretty confident that this will turn out ok. you’re young and strong. i’ll ask jet to call you tonight.

    ingat pinsan – with much love.
    jay

  2. to: imo

    have you asked for a second opinion? whatever it is, i will include you in my prayers (you can count on it). the big guy upstairs is the only salvation and hope.

    god bless brod….bong

  3. good morning,
    thank you bong, may appointment ako mamya para sa second opinion dahil medyo dagdag sa problema raw yung diabetis ko eh! ay! ano ba yan?
    Jay, nasa bahay ako around 6pm antayin ko tawag nyo. ni hindi ko nga alam kung sasabihin ko kila ema, I really dunno what to think any more.
    pirmi na lang nating naririnig na ibang tao ang nagkaka-cancer pero ngayong ako ang nakasalang eh pre, iba pala talaga pag ikaw na.
    Finally, nakatulog rin ako ng maayos kagabi since last wednesday, alam ko na ngayon kung ano ang gagawin, inom ng dalawang beer habang nanonood ng nba…hehehe! maraming salamat.

    love ‘ya
    -Imo

  4. Imo,

    Sa totoo lang, lahat tayo ay “terminal.” Iba-iba ang haba ng buhay. May napaka-ikli, at may pagkahaba-haba, subalit iisa lang ang hanhantungan natin, kamatayan. Ito’y prueba lamang na tayong lahat ay makasalanan.

    Ang kabayaran ng kasalanan ay kamatayan. Ang mga nakiki-apid, ang mga sumasamba sa diyos-diyosan, ang mga mangangalunya (sinabi ni Jesus, “Ang sinumang tumingin sa isang babae na may masamang pagnanasa sa kaniya ay nagkakasala na ng pangangalunya sa kaniyang puso.”), ang mga sinungaling, ang mga lumalapastangan sa Dios (using God’s name or Jesus’ name as a cuss word), ang mga suwail sa mga magulang, ang mga mamamatay tao (sinabi ni Jesus, kung ika’y may kinapopootan, para ka na ring mamamatay tao sa puso) ay hindi magmamana ng kaharian ng Diyos. Maging ang mga magnanakaw, ang mga mapag-imbot, ang mga manginginom ng alak, ang mga mapanirang puri, ang mga sakim ay hindi magmamana ng kaharian ng Diyos.

    You and I have transgressed God’s laws. All of us. And one day when you stand before the Judge of the living and the dead, you know that you will be declared guilty and deserve to be banished to hell. Thanks be to God, he also provided a way of salvation. He sent His Son to pay the penalty of sin by dying in the place of sinful people. Ask Him to forgive your sins. Repent, or turn away from sin. Put your trust in Jesus as your Lord and Savior. He will forgive your sins, reconcile you to God, save you from hell, and prepare a place for you in heaven. You won’t regret it.

    Please read the gospel of John. Make Psalm 51 your own prayer. Imo, I don’t know you, but I do care for you. If you attend a church, call the pastors/elders and let them pray for you according to James 5:13-16. I will be praying for you.

  5. Haaayy naku… hay naku… speaking of kamatayan, ang masasabi ko lang na kung dumating na yan sa ating lahat… WE WON’T EVEN KNOW ABOUT IT!!!!! In fact, we all experience DEATH every single day of our life everytime we go to a deep sleep… pag sara ng mata natin at 9pm hanggang sa pag gising natin sa umaga… we may wanna ask ourselves… “what the hell happened in the past 5,6 hours or so? Where did it went?” Just like prior to our birth eversince the beginning of the world/time as we know it… WE WERE ALL DEAD, isn’t it? Since we’ve been DEAD for so long and now that we’re LIVING… why don’t we enjoy and live life to it’s fullest????? Live life one day at a time… take the time to stop and smell the fragrance of nature, let your love ones know how you feel about them… enjoy the world… enjoy life… there is no such thing as reincarnation (otherwise, the number of population on earth won’t change… hahahaha) … this is it… this is our only chance to live our individual lives to the fullest… ENJOY IT TO THE LAST DROP!!!!!

  6. Hi Gene,

    It seems to me that you don’t believe there’s a heaven and a hell. I can only presume that you don’t believe in the Bible either, God’s revelation to man, because hell is one of it’s major subjects. Did you know that Jesus spoke more about hell than heaven? You seem to be saying that death is the end of your existence, that this is all there is to life. What if you are wrong? Are you not concerned about your eternal destiny?

    You also wrongly assumed that if a person is heavenly minded, he can no longer enjoy life this side of heaven. On the contrary, Jesus said that he came that they might have life and have it more abundantly. A modern translation says, “I came that you might have life and experience it to the fullest fullest.”

    Gene, to truly enjoy life in this world, you need purpose. But if you don’t believe God exists, or that he did not reveal himself, and that this is all there is to life, you have no basis for purpose.

    I reason from the starting presupposition that God exists and has revealed himself in his word, the Bible, and through his Son, Jesus Christ. From this starting point I have a basis for human purpose. God created me in his image in order to love, obey, and bring glory to him.

  7. Oligopistoi, ang bait bait mo pala… sana kunin ka na ni Lord tapos balik ka lang dito sa blog para ma-i-share mo sa amin ang iyong experience sa kabilang buhay. Good luck and peace man ;-)!

  8. Gene, ang kaligtasan ay di sa pamamagitan ng kabaitan o mabuting gawa. Sa biyaya lang ng Dios tayo maliligtas sa pamamagitan ng pananampalataya, at ito ay hindi sa ating sarili, ito ay kaloob ng Diyos. Ito ay hindi dahil sa gawa upang hindi magmalaki ang sinuman. Ang kabutihan ay bunga lamang ng tunay na pananampalataya.

    I look forward to heaven, but in the meantime, I want to share God’s good news with you, because I want you to go to heaven too. I do care for you, Gene. ;-)!

    Better than relying on lady luck is trusting in a living, loving Lord who is sovereign.

  9. Lyzius, nagtatanong lang. Please don’t be offended. Sabi mo maliligtas ka (I presume you mean from hell) kahit na anong relihiyon ka pa. Ang mahalaga ay matindi ang true-faith mo sa pinaniniwalaan mo.

    Is it the faith that saves, or the object of the faith that saves? Ang nagliligtas ba ay yung paniniwala o yong pinaniniwalaan? Papaano kung ang pinaniniwalaan ng tao ay si Satanas o mga karumal-dumal na espirito. Papaano kung ang pinaniniwalaan ay hidwang pananampalataya (cultic groups)?

    May mga naniniwala sa Koran, ang iba sa Biblia, Book of Mormon, Hindu scriptures, Book of Satan, Origin of the Species, etc. Since they contradict one another on the fundamental issues, they cannot all be right at the same time. Maaaring silang lahat ay mali, subalit hindi maaaring silang lahat ay tama. May isa pang posibilidad. May isa sa kanila na tama. I come from a Christian perspective, from a biblical worldview.

    How about you, what do you believe in, and why do you believe it? Bakit mo ito pinaniniwalaan ng “matindi?”

  10. Good Afternoon,

    Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is…
    when we’re kids? If you’re less than 10 yrs old, you’re so excited about
    aging eh!you think in fractions agad. How old are you? I’m 4 1/2, you’re never 36 1/2. You’re 4 1/2, going on 5! That’s the key, kasi po eh!—>

    You get into your teens, now theres no holding you back. You jump to the next freaking numero, or even a few ahead. “How old are you?” “I’m gonna be 16!” ahuh! kahit na 13 ka pa lang na kumag ka, but hey, you’re going to be 16! And then the greatest day of your life. You become freaking 21 yrs old. ‘langya even the words sound like a ceremony…
    YOU BECOME 21 XD

    But then you turn 30. aray ko po, what happened there (:-/ Makes you sound like panis na gatas. the fool TURNED 30; we have to throw him out na!. There’s no fun now, you’re just one sour-dumpling na nakapatong sa natuyong sweet & sour sauce. What’s wrong? sa na napunta ang panahon?
    What’s changed? You BECOME 21 then you TURNED 30.

    Tapos ‘tol, you’re PUSHING 40 (Life really does begin at forty though. up until then…you’re just doing research). Whoa! Put on the brakes, it’s all slipping away, nooooo!, ngayong turning 43 1/2 na ako, eto na-tsambahan pa ata mga tsong, baka may pesteng cancer pa, kaya naging day-by-day thingy na lang. Every day cycle ko; simula nung Wednesday (day na kinausap kami ng doctor ko) nag lunch; home by 6:30pm; REACHED bedtime, yey!…pero,

    It doesn’t end there, a strange thing will happen…pucha! pagod na pagod(FYI, I commute about 200 miles everyday), di ka makatulog, bangon uli, inom ng 2 beer, balik sa kama ‘tas dasal and hiling sa dyos na sana you all make it to a healthy 100 1/2 yrs old!!!

    At syempre, I thank god for every morning when I get up that I have something to do which must be done, whether I like it or not. Remind myself…Imo, if you’re going to do something stupid tonight na you’ll be sorry for tomorrow morning–sleep late, isang beer pa uli HEHEHE!

    Ika nga eh!
    Be life long or short, its completeness depends on what and how I lived it for and ALWAYS TRY TO REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. Pero to kasing si oligopistoi, pinag isip pa ako ng isasagot, kaya ayan he took my brain cells away, talaga ‘to, konti na nga lang natitirang brain cells ko eh!

    Gene,
    ‘lam mo man tama ka siguro, yung mababait ang pirming nauuna kaya dapat siguro medyo may konting kapalpakan din sa buhay ano?
    maraming salamat sa lahat…

    Jay, pwedeng link ko ‘tong page na to sa site ko? plz, plz, pretty plz? I promise to bahave. 🙂 tenks in advance pinsang batjay.

    love ‘ya,
    -Imo

  11. Hi Imo,

    I am praying for you, and am also asking some friends to pray for you. It’s not my purpose to vex or trouble you. I know you already have so many things in mind regarding your present physical challenge. I just want you to know that there is hope here and in the life to come. Jesus is the great physician and I believe he still heals today.

    My mom is a cancer survivor; she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer 12 years ago. She opted out of radiation treatment or chemo therapy. I am not recommending this to anyone. God uses medicines and physicians as well. They can cure you, but it is God who heals. Today, she is cancer free and has more energy than many women half her age.

    But in case the sovereign Lord does not heal us physically, he promises life everlasting in heaven to those who repent of sins and put their trust in him. To be given glorified bodies would be the real, complete healing.

  12. mr oligopistoi, mawalang galang po, wala ba kayong sariling blog para ipagkalat ang sinasabi ninyo? kasi po ginawa ninyong forum itong blog ng ibang tao na hinde naman inyo.

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